Monday, December 29, 2008

From the windOw of a 3rd perSon


He is one with a mind which searches for a meaning to life and is intellectually very stimulating. He perceives things with an eye for opportunity and has an admirable manner of expressing himself verbally. His vibrant mental capacity sometimes makes him seem confined or restless.

He is able to assert himself with ease and dynamism, in which she finds him to have an intriguing sense of sensuality and sexuality. He is quite compulsive about whatever attracts or repels him. She believes he is aware of his pronounced power potential because it never elicits a bland response from others. This underlying sting of his. Such raw energy that he possessed can be anything from healing to almost murderous. His make for being a formidable lover – or enemy.

She thinks he is grappling with the idea of affection and love; striving to gain an objective view of these emotional involvements without becoming uninvolved altogether. In order to gain this objectivism, she finds him at times emotionally alienated. A thing she yearns for and struggle with.

She's basically a hippie Christian girl. She’s afraid she is becoming one of those self-righteous superior a**holes. However, much of what she does is boundaried by the illusive moral compass. She had thought of being a nun. If anyone should asked what happened, why that didn’t, "Puberty."

She is pretty hard-core. Her thoughts on the how things work and should work are clear. It's apparent from how she talks, she's an idealist.

You can tell she is a bit stunned by him and she is not sure how to deal with it. She’d already know that being with him may be strenuous and challenging - but it is also passionate and engaging.

She is one of those people who cannot understand why anyone would ever ever want to do harm consciously. What these two characters - both with passionate beliefs – opposed at times to one another ideologically - and yet amused with the other's conviction - have; as is obvious, a rarity.

To some degree, she sometimes becomes so disenchanted from the very lack of him that she feels she had to check out entirely. But she realizes she should appreciate what is and not just what could be. There is multiple viewpoints of one picture. Each may be contradictory as it is all true. It's not wholly in opposition. She never wants to come off as being ridiculous. She believes in God, she believes in a just universe. She also, because she knew him, believes that if anyone is truly good natured in the most dire of circumstances, he would be the one.

So, on some level, she holds him in contempt. And on some level, he holds her in contempt. It's not a question of being diametrically opposed. They really talk. It feels real. He makes things real to her. What is great about the way it is; is that it does not become a petty argument. He listens. She argues. He argues. She listens. At one point, he grins at her, and you can see her suddenly get nervous. In that moment, she is not her beliefs; she is a girlfriend, nervous. Nervous about the future, and how this dynamic will play itself out.


She is surprised. How and why an unlikely pair worked, came this far and why it dodges its own traps so deftly. She’s amazed she cared for him this much.

e/\/\'s greEk gOd péché-mignon

On a wild night, driven more by weariness than good sense, King Zeus agreed to let his daughter do it differently. She didn't want to just get married and sit out some war, while her man, god or not, underwent the ritual metamorphosis from palace prince to craggy hero.

By morning she had packed and set off for her new life in the woods. She wanted to be alone. In her solitude she discovered something very odd. She had envied men their long-legged freedom to roam the world and return full of glory to wives who only waited. She knew about history-makers and the home-makers, the great division that made life possible.
Without rejecting it, she had simply hoped to take on the parts of the freedoms that belonged to the other side. What if she travelled the world and the seven seas? Would she find something different or the old things in different disguises?


She found that the whole world could be contained in one place because that place was; You.
Nothing had prepared her for this.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

The Two Kinds of Secrets

There are two kinds of secrets: Those we keep from others and those we keep from ourselves. Something have indeed shifted. The latter makes the former even more significant to keep. Em needs courage to uncover the latter before deciding on the former.
Everyone seems to hear what I've got to say but only true friends listen to what I say. Most of all, I hope you'd be able listen to what I don't say. Even if all you hear is d clickality-clack-clack. It's not easy. Em never said it was.
It's that nagging feeling.
All there is; is within and yet beyond reach.
To walk or keep walking.
The answer will uncover both the above posed.

Strangely It Doesn't Feel All Hunky Dory








Saturday, November 15, 2008

15th day of November 2008

cheRie,
this has got to be em's most boring saturday aftn ever in my life! i sat there at 4.30 after facial 'n lunch with moMie reading ccp case studies 'n it hit me. gOsh, em bOred!! can't stay off the internet withOut checking updated news every 15 mins. yes. news, trying to be a productive, informed and matured 25-year old. avoiding ivillage & askmen.com (em's educational net distractions) *LOLz*
em think i might be suffering frOm www-induced OCD. needed a change of scene me thought. went to the poOLside and read. didn't really help. dialled S-O-S.
felt a lil better. continued reading. theN the mOzzies came. as if the spiddys did not feed enOugh from me already. *arghh*. trot back. read summore. felt even more bored. to keep meself occupied, went out to have early dInner (confession, u noe how i dislike eating alone. oui. i packed dinner =p).
mOmie pa n grand are out for a weDding feast u c. mizim is also away for weddings @ lion city. what is it with weddings!!! argh. em lonely. missed u more. u make me laugh. em wants to laugh 'n play whenever u and i want to but i can't..hehe*sniffs*
logged on MSN for the first time in months. em amazed. this has to end. realized this is a state of mind. dialled another support line. let's go mOvies me asked. what movie he asked. wanna go zOuk he replied. no thanks me replied. i don't feel particularly in the mood for clubbing ALTHOUGH em freaking bored cuz i've just did me facial. God save em , pullezzzzz. thank God one l'amis sensed my desperation.
okae, let do madagscar. yes, sounds awesome. =P. don't care what movie. i just needed an outlet.
if only i had a book or a faster www connection like cherie's.

could go you-tubing on palin 'n ninja kitties.
could d.load House.
could d.load lost in translation, l'serpent, dr. hotton hears the who.
gosh. www-OCD. self creative destruction.

is that a vibration em hears? yes. em out of here. yiPPie!!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Who is this girl you fell for?

Is she this naive, shy thing; not a mere wisp of a girl but yet, not a woman?
Does she have a heart of gold with insurmountable capacity to cling to an idealism of reality,
and yet understands and knowingly accepts the world’s evils?

Half angel, yet half tart?
Your innocent schoolgirl, yet who is as lascivious when unleashed?
Does she look up to you like a mentor, yet in her head she has the mind of a scholar?

Reserved yet accepts you without reservation?
Foolish, and bright, yet she is all yours.

A random adaptation of poetic V. Palmer, 1999.
Strikingly apt in your discovery of a late-bloomer.

An Accidental Fugitive

em had committed a series of serious crimes in lion-city. Nope, em did not put to rest those who kept mon cherie from resting in peace by pounding all night long *griNs*. But gee, did not realize the severity of this until em read the news. If convicted; being a serial offender; em could be punishable by life imprisonment.


.WOW.